Saying goodbye................................

I heard 'it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday' today and i bursted into tears. That song always brings back alot of memories. I am one of those people who given a chance would get into 'Dr Who's lil phone booth' and go back in time. There are so many things about my past i would change honestly. I can just hear you guys saying my past has made me who i have become and i should cherish every part of it(true dat) but still i would change a few things :)

Its been a decade since i left high school and alot has happened. I would do anything to be back in my pinafore going 'across' to tuckshop to get my pepsi and sausage rolls missing the sausages! I miss being 12 again! Not that i am not glad to be where i am! Lord i am grateful i love my life and i am glad to be where i am at the moment. I am just a tad bit emotional tonight.....

Just going down memory lane.........all the friends i have lost along the way too numerous to mention. Relationships i had thought i would be able to boast about dying so quickly. This song just makes the memories so fresh. Some of these friends i met while in secondary school and they will always hold a special place in my heart even though we don't talk anymore. Miss you girls so much extension classes was just the best time i ever shared with u guys.

While in college i made some wonderful friends, had a lil misunderstanding and it all fizzled out. Those girls were my dawgs for life back then. We had MSN IM down like that, we just clicked like that.They are doing big things now and i am so proud of them (just wish i could be a part of their lives again) but we seem to have outgrown ourselves......I didn't even realise i had all this balled up until i saw tears coming down and had flashbacks of moments spent with all these people.

So much time has passed it feels almost impossible to now try and pick up where we stopped. Actually went out for lunch once with one of my old friends and there was nothing to talk about (i felt so awful). I really do respect this girl alot and would love for things to be different but eh what's a sister to do?

To top it all up the newest group of friends i just made just showed they weren't who they really claimed to be. It hurts alot thinking that all those memories are all i have left now.........It truly is hard to say goodbye to yesterday especially when what was shared was special.Here is to all my old friends (i know things can never be how they were before) but i really do miss you guys alot every single one of you. I miss all the coded conversations, the late night fone calls,chatting till the wee hours of the night online, the wild partying, man drama, the lil fights, prayering sessions, the pigging out moments.................thanks for all the sweet memories.