Counting my blessings

First and foremost i would like to say a big thank u to: (London Buki, Olawunmi and the life of a stranger called me) for welcoming me into blogville.Its seems i must have been hiding far away in Neptune or sumthin cos my addiction for blogspot just started!

I woke up this morning really thankful for all God had done in my life......i know at just the right time i will have cause to truly testify to His goodness. This time last month(11th September) i was lying in a hospital bed with needles all over(i still think i ought to sue the hospital for turning me into a pin cushion!). For those who have read my profile you know i recently jumped the broom :) married life is sweet but mennnnn am i learning fast that i need to tame my tongue if this union is going to last! Sorry i digressed there :) anywayz i was flat on my back for two days and i couldn't do anything for myself not even using the loo. While in this position the last thing on my mind was to thank God(infact i was questioning Him).

I was twelve weeks pregnant when this incident happened and the last words i heard the midwife mention before i bursted into tears were 'inevitable miscarriage'. Yup i lost the baby........and as much as i hated the morning sickness and not fiting into all my 'sezzzyyy' outfits i was completely crushed. I still can't find words to describe the physical pain i went through(thank goodness for my darling husband).

The hardest part was after i was discharged from the hospital (going back to reality). Honestly i am not exaggerating every where i went i saw a pregnant woman or someone pushing a pushchair and i would just feel this surge of anger and bitterness. Thank goodness for the Holy Spirit who kept me in check i would have caused some havoc for real!An aunt told me while i was at the hospital that i needed to ask God what He wanted me to learn from this event(i thought she was off her trolley at first). A month after i can clearly see that she was right when she said those words......... So far i have learnt to appreciate the little things alot more.

I woke up this morning truly grateful to God for all He has done in my life and that of my darling husband. The most exciting part is that we are still a work in progress. I am a big fan of Oprah so i try to keep a gratitude journal 'of a sort'. Went through the journal today and i realised i have 'ha' reason to praise the Lord. For my marriage, my darling husband,for my unborn children, for my darling dad and mum(u would think my mum and i were married to the same man the way we act), and my siblings.